Letting God Prevail

By Jane Johnson

Although I have been a member of The Church all my life, I have never felt as close to the Saviour as I do now. I was brought up in a home with faithful parents who served the Lord to the fullest.

I had bad epilepsy for most of my life, which in turn caused me to have depression, a skin graft on my arm, and two unsuccessful brain surgeries. Losing my memory and losing our family home were also among things that happened while my husband was Stake President.

Fasting and praying during these times comforted us.

However, it wasn't until I had cancer that things seemed to change about the way I felt. As a result, I had to have my full leg amputated. My sister passed away while I was in hospital.

A year later I started to feel angry. A good friend, who is paralysed from the waist down, said it might be because I was mourning the loss of my leg. I was feeling sorry for myself. I had to pray for help to get over how I was feeling. I had a blessing which said I'd been given this to help others. Since that blessing, four members of my Ward were diagnosed with cancer and others around the country have called to speak to me. I was able to be there for them.

In 2020, my cancer unexpectedly returned! After the initial crying from us all, I felt calm. I had another wonderful blessing and could feel peace. I play the piano, and playing songs helped me get through it.

I love the April 2020 General Conference talk from President Nelson called Hear Him. Playing and listening to music is a way I Hear Him. I prayed to Heavenly Father and said I didn't mind having chemo as long as I suited being bald.

The cancer went, which was a surprise, and a nurse who was an atheist said, 'You know I don't believe in God, but someone is watching over you'. I'd spoken to them all during my treatment about members fasting and praying.

In June 2022, the cancer had returned for the third time in 4 places! I've never been an anxious person but waiting for the result was horrible. My husband and I hugged and cried yet again. We said a prayer to ask Heavenly Father to help us get through it. Another talk from President Nelson came to mind. It was Let God Prevail.

This time the monthly chemotherapy has affected me psychologically. I'm a strong-willed person and I've never said, 'Why me?'. Instead, I ask the Lord what I need to learn. My prayers have never been as heartfelt. Yes, sometimes I cry out during the night when I'm so fatigued with my chemo. We have a picture of Christ on our bedroom wall, and when I'm awake during the night I ask for His help. I have the words 'Let God Prevail' in my mind every day. Whenever my husband is stressed about his business, he knows I'm going to smile and he says, 'Let God Prevail.'

Although we're going through these trials, and I still have down days where I cry and feel hopeless, most days I Let God Prevail and feel at peace. I'm still serving as our Ward Relief Society President, and blessed to be able to help the members with their trials in their lives.

Let us not put off praying and asking for help getting through challenges in our lives. The Lord is there, waiting for us to ask for help- “Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest” (Matthew 11:28).