One
November 2024 marked the 50th anniversary of my encounter on Exhibition Road in West London with Benny Latham, at the time a missionary for The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.
Elder Latham saw me approaching and felt a strong impulse to ask me a singular question, “Excuse me sir, do you believe in God?” He had never used this approach before; they didn’t seem like his words.
For my part, a young student, hungry and tired at the end of a busy Monday, I had logged this gentleman threatening to interrupt my brisk walk home to food and rest and had determined to walk on by.
But that question! It stopped me dead in my tracks. I had thought about God a certain amount, but nobody had ever asked me so directly as to whether I actually believed. “I don’t know,” was the response of my soul.
At that moment there was a connection between us. He invited me back to see him the following Monday in the church building behind him. And I came.
Two
The missionaries started teaching me about the “Restored Gospel” and I was intrigued, but I resisted with a strong dose of rational scepticism.
At the end of every session, they invited me to pray. Again I resisted. I had never prayed and felt very awkward at the very thought. Eventually, they wore me down – I agreed. They suggested a simple format, and I knelt and voiced a prayer.
And while I grappled for words, I felt a bright effusion of light in my mind. It was something real and profound. I suddenly felt that there were other ways of knowing beyond the limits of human reason. This spiritual experience unlocked my soul to God and all the associated possibilities.
Three
I read the Book of Mormon and the Bible with new eyes and a new heart. One morning I came across a passage that once again penetrated my defences.
“But I say unto you, O man, whosoever [suffer that the beggar putteth up his petition to him in vain] the same hath great cause to repent; and except he repenteth of that which he hath done he perisheth forever, and hath no interest in the kingdom of God.” (Mosiah 4:16-18)
This spoke to the fact that I was ignoring a beggar who lived on the street on the way to college. I would cross the road to avoid her petition. I told myself it was her fault she was in that position. Suddenly I was convicted as having “no interest in the kingdom of God.” I was determined to change.
A couple of days later, I was confronted in the street by a rough-looking man who asked me for £2.68 - the cost, apparently, of the local night shelter. For a moment, I felt hard-hearted, but then remembered my resolve – I gave him the money, and continued.
Almost immediately, my being was overtaken by a warmth that spread from the centre out through my arms and legs. Again, it was real and profound. I understood from the missionaries that this experience was a confirmation from the Holy Spirit. But of what, exactly? I felt that it was not a reward for being charitable, but a witness that I had read the word of God (in the Book of Mormon) and applied it in my life. I had repented, and that was pleasing to Him.
Three things, one source.
These three life events have a common root: the influence of the Holy Spirit as a vehicle for God’s grace and love.
The Spirit placed meaningful words in Elder Latham’s mouth, replied to my reaching prayer with deep peace and light, and fired my desire to be transformed by living the doctrine of Christ.
It was later that I read Alma’s address on planting the seed (Alma 32:27-35). He describes the other ways of knowing in these terms – Swell, Enlarge, Enlighten, Delicious – SEED.
He goes on to ask, “Is not this real?[…] Yea” He is saying that there are more ways of knowing just as real as the fruits of thought and reason. To know God we need the full spectrum: thought experiments, soul experiments, and experiments of intention. And not just one-off, but over a lifetime.
Fifty years and counting.